Odd mental disorder? Possibly Multi-personality disorder?

[Alien.]

So is there a way to fix that? With pills maybe? I have some sort of a fear of people, and I know I need to socialize and what not, but it's like I can't.

[alloker]

I will recommend three types of therapy.

COGNITIVE THERAPY. Print the following text, read it often, fold the paper to a suitable size and carry it in your pocket:

I know that there are bad people who can hurt me. I am very much afraid of them and can run away from them when necessary. But I can also fight them when needed. I don’t let them hurt me. I am not a child.

On the other hand, I also know that everyone is not bad. I don’t provoke good people against me by expecting them to be bad and by being afraid of them baselessly. I have enough sense and courage to judge people and the situation correctly so that I can decide rationally to run away, to fight, or to be neutral or friendly. I always maintain a sufficient base of courage and fear, but I never become complacent or panicky. I can make friends without being hurt by them. I am not a child.

BEHAVIOR THERAPY. This consists of acting out what you promised yourself to do in the cognitive therapy, making the whole thing look like a game:

Behave as if you were running away from a danger, saying to yourself, “I am afraid, I am afraid!”

Then stop, turn back, and start behaving as if you were fighting your enemy, saying, “I’ll crash you, now take this, etc.” like Popeye does.

Behave also like you were with a trusted friend, without being complacent. Above all, try to make friends without being hurt by them. I hope that this therapy will help you to succeed.

COMPENSATION, OR SUBSTITUTION, THERAPY. All non-organic mental, or psychological, disorders are caused by harmful failures, and the only decisive remedy is to terminate the failures and their harmful consequences. The above recommendations aim to realize this. However, the harmful effect of failures on mental, or psychological, health can be reduced by compensating it by the beneficial effect of successes in various areas of activity, as exemplified below. These can be called substitute successes, which are most useful when the realized failures or their harmful effects cannot be terminated.

Pets can compensate for the lack of human friends in some measure. Some sports such as fishing, hunting, hiking, etc. can secure success and happiness even when done alone. More commonly, music, films, photography, books, etc. can be sources of happiness which can make living meaningful and enjoyable. You must find such sources of success and happiness. Famous Japanese film director Kurosawa told in an autobiographical film made up of his dreams that he found people bad and sought happiness in nature and films.

PS. Not only failures and harms but also excessive happiness can cause psychological disorder later when it is terminated. For example, a child who experiences mistreatment after becoming used to good treatment can get hurt by that mistreatment more than a child who is always treated badly. You must look for such a factor in your case.

[Alien.]

Thank you, I truly appreciate this. I think I'm going to do the first method, writing that down on a piece of paper, and keeping it near me, I'll attempt to force myself to read it everyday. If that doesn't work, I'll do the second one, even though I am extremely shy, even by myself. I don't know if I should do the third one. The third one is pretty much me having to find some sort of a hobbie, or an interest, something that brings me happiness, and focusing on it? If that's what you mean by that, then I really don't know if I can do that one, seeing as how what brings me happiness are paranormal stories and aliens, yet, I also have a phobia of both things. It's extremely confusing, I really don't know how you could be interested in something you fear.

[SWM]

hi,

did you ever track down any of the books i recommended?

[alloker]

The first method alone may not be sufficient. In fact, the two other methods are more effective. All three methods need to be used together, because they support each other.

The second method does not involve only making friends in reality or in imagination. For example, imagine that aliens are chasing you, and run away from them physically, crying, “Aliens are chasing me, I am afraid, I am afraid.”  Then stop, turn back, and do as if you were hitting them, saying, “But I can protect myself. I am not a child.”  The voluntary production of a symptom is a good means of terminating its involuntary production, except that, evidently, physically harmful symptoms should not be imitated. For example, the best method of terminating hiccups is to produce one voluntarily, several times if necessary, especially at the precise times one is expected to occur spontaneously. In psychological disorders, the willful production of a symptom serves to show to the unconscious that the function of the symptom is consciously understood. This can make the further spontaneous, automatic production of the symptom unnecessary.

The third method involves more than finding a hobby. You must do whatever you can do and enjoy, such as watching films by Fred Astaire, Gene Kelly, John Wayne, Gary Cooper, etc,; watching pictures and films of pretty nude girls; eating chocolate, etc. Anything you can do and enjoy doing will make life meaningful to you.

You can also imagine voluntarily paranormal events that can involve aliens, and you can be afraid of them and can also fight them, cooperating with good people. This will be a combination of all three methods of therapy.

[Alien.]

SWM - Actually, yes. I didn't get to actually go to the library, but I went on their site, and used their search for books thing, I think I found the one book, but the two others weren't there. I search both library's as well. I'll keep searching.

alloker - I think I'll do the last thing you said, that might work the best, I think. I assume I have to do this about once or twice a week, yes? It's not just a one time deal, then poof, I'm fixed?

[alloker]

I recommend you to do all of the exercises as many times as you can every day for one week and see if this helps you. Depending on the result, you can decide what to do next.

You can also try to write fantastic stories.

[Alien.]

Stories? I'd love to write the stories instead, to be honest. Would I just write about the things you told me to act out? (Running from the aliens, admitting I'm afraid, but sticking up to them, hurting them, telling them I'm not a child and I'm not afraid of them anymore, ect.)

[alloker]

I recommended you to write fantastic stories that you imagine, not the stories of exercises that you should do. You may even get your stories published. But this is not easy; so don't count on it.

[Alien.]

Oh, I know that they won't get published, or any type of fame, It will just be a way to help myself, and get my negative emotions out. I will most likely use the site my sister recommended to me.

[NataEames]

Oh my god, Alien, im so glad i stumbled upon you! Reading your post, I not only see that we have a very similar problem but i also feel like i associate with you.

Ive been hearing somebody else inside my head for a while now. But i dont actually "hear" it, it's as if that person is thinking inside my head. I've been like this since I was very little (im 21 now) and it would never bother me.

But lately it sounds like a completely different voice. Hostile, telling me im useless, weak, torturing me about all the wrongs about me and constantly talking. It feels like a running tv commentary on my life. Even when im talking to someone it interrupts me and it wont stop talking when i try to sleep.

Ive been awake for 22 and a half hours now. I'll probably get too tired and pass out because the voice won't let me sleep. This has been the case for about two weeks.

I'm just glad I'm not alone and im hoping to get some help as well.

If anyone has time to have a full discussion on the topic, you can also reach me by email - [email protected]

Nata Eames