am i just affected by growing up or just angry?

[uncleyazakia]

i need serious help i am 15 and am indifferent to just about everything but fighting. i have a very pacifist personality which i probably got from my parents who told me never to fight unless someone took a swing at me first but i always want to fight and it never stops but i have gotten into actual fist fights with my brother and i always end up holding back like I'm scared of losing control but there have been 2 or 3 occasions where without thinking i have grabbed him by the throat and my anger turns to indifference again but but for him altogether this has not happend in at least 2 years but i always have no feelings or this almost blood lust like urge to fight nothing really phases me either no feelings of joy or sadness last for more than 10 minutes why am i like this? am i just this indifferent and fight crazy or is something wrong with me? 

[jafirshirazi]

Dear!!!
I am Jafir Shirazi from Pakistan. I read your problem. If you want to get rid off from this type of reactions then you should follow some of my instructions.
1. wake up early in the morning before the sunrise.
2. go for a walk and then take long breaths minimum for 15 to 20 minutes.
3. if possible walk briskly or take excercise for ten to fifteen minutes.
4. Think repeatedly that you are calming down . there is no frustration in u.
it will help you alot.for more help let me know

[ConsciousPuppet]

maybe you want or like feeling powerful
maybe you are competitive
maybe you have a lot of testosterone

[regit]

It might be a mix of both anger and growing up. Fighting is probably the only way you feel to communicate what is actually going on with you. Try to find a way to express your emotions in other ways (writing, reading, taking a walk, etc). My bet is you have some issues that you have not been able to deal with and so you resort to fighting.

Its probably also partly because you are 15. In a psychology class of mine, we were learning about the adolescent brain, and how it is changing so much during this time. Your brain is physically going through big changes, which causes most teens to act out/up, etc.  it sucks bc there is nothing you can really do about your brain changing, and the effects of it.

[uncleyazakia]

but another problem i have with this is that fighting just thinking about it now just seems so fun it just fills me with excitement to think about fighting someone even the thought of getting hurt from it still makes it seem even more fun but when i have these thoughts of fighting i often dont imagine the outcome of these fights just fighting

[ConsciousPuppet]

   hmm, how about channeling your fighting and setting limits to it, like practicing a sport or martial art which involves competition. It is something that you can use in the future as a career, and you could channel all that motivation into something socially acceptable.

   And the point is to find a way to be violent without negative repercussions. You'll meet a lot of people with similar interests too!