My Inner World

[conan555]

THese days I have been suffering a toothache. I feel myself is a special person and I feel sad just because I'm special. I have never been in the situation while I run across something, there have never anything happened in my life and nothing eciting for me, but a lot of things happended all exist in my private inner world and this is the most significant thing for me.
For most of people, when something happens, that means they find jobs, earn a money or something like that. but for me, that means I'm thinking of something and going to talk about something.These days I've thought a lot. I want to talk to a person who can understand me when I'm facing him/her, that is not I dont know how to express myself, that is I dont know who is the person or where the person is who I love to talk to facing in this world.
Sometimes I feel despair---I have something strong in my heart, but I cant speak it out, and this despair cant be solved by myself.So this feeling makes me feel I'm special, different from most of people.
Some people maybe think I'm a self-centered, always think of myself.Everything is always what I myself think of from my angle, how I myself want to do, and how I myself feel, and I myself feel i'm special. What I'm thingking is different from others',so I'm a person who concetrate too much attetion on my inner world.

[liza123]

May I ask why you joined this forum?What are you looking for?

[SWM]

@conan55

it seems such a troubled world that you have found yourself in. i sense that you want to reach out and connect with somebody, and you know that there is somebody somewhere with whom you can connect. there is something that is happening in your world that you want to share with others. if you could share this with somebody you might find some relief from this torment.  there is a recognition by you that you focus on your self too much and this also troubles you.

[Enigma]

What exactly is it that makes you "special"?

[conan555]

I'm looking for a person who can understand me.

[conan555]

@conan55

it seems such a troubled world that you have found yourself in. i sense that you want to reach out and connect with somebody, and you know that there is somebody somewhere with whom you can connect. there is something that is happening in your world that you want to share with others. if you could share this with somebody you might find some relief from this torment.  there is a recognition by you that you focus on your self too much and this also troubles you.

Yes, I want to reach out and connect with somebody, but i dont know how and where i can find them? I really need somebody when there is something that is happening in my world that i want to share with others.

[conan555]

What exactly is it that makes you "special"?

I'm "special" means I'm different from other people's ideas. what they pursue is how to make more money, and how to be famous or show other people how they are,etc. but what i think in my mind is how to pursue my spirit happiness, i dont care how much money i make, i dont care what other people think of me, I want to talk about the common topics with people who have the same interests. I like philosophy,art, music, and books.

[Enigma]

You're not as uncommon as you think.  You say you enjoy art, music, books, philosophy...so why not hang around at a museum, concert, library, bookstore, etc.  Talk to people.